They will be ok…

Good news … it seems that I have found a room to move to. I was extremely happy when Tony called and told me that starting tomorrow I can move. Damn… he’s such a good friend… and even if it’s not for a long period of time … untill January, still it’s a new place to move to, finally getting out of here. But am I happy ? The first 30 minutes I was like in heaven… but then after seeing the expression of Denisas moms face… I got a bit upset. I have practically been a part of this family for the last 4 years..and lived with them for more than 1 year … and now everything is ending… very upsetting I might say. Its really funny because I don’t know how to feel about it… I’ve been waiting for this moment for such a long time that now I’m not sure wether I should be happy or sad. Half of my heart is happy while the other half is crying … just like in theater.I will miss them that’s for sure, but on the other hand I really know that I have to do this and better sooner than later. I now have to consider a bed and a tv as main purchases… probably going to take tuesday off from school and work and just try to actually move some of the stuff in.
My parents seemed happy as well… I am going to be alone though .. very alone .. and that’s one of the things I hate the most … being alone …