Thank you, for loving me, for letting me see exactly how you are inside and not how you pretend to be outside, thank you for trusting me, for kissing and caressing me, for respecting me and for spending time with me. In the same time I thank you for not spending time with me, for hurting me, for dissapointing me and for betraying my trust. Thank you for ignoring me, for making me feel lost and lonely, and though I know I will never be able to love as pure as I did love you, thank you for making me stronger. For having me reach the maturity of thought and feelings, although it is quite sad that I will leave part of how I used to perceive feelings aside. I will from today let go everything that made me feel with my heart first and then with my brain, and start doing the other way around … like grown-ups do. A part of me which waited to be born is now into this world, as another part of me dies. I cannot say that I am happy with the change, but I assume this is how things go in life, when you gain something, you loose something, but sometimes, whether we like I like or not, the trade is not fare, as you loose something you treasured to something you will get stuck to. Remember how you felt when you were first told that Santa Claus doesn’t exist ? Well, you gave away the trust, and received a small piece of maturity. Thank you …
Very nicely written. Extremely sad, at the same time. As I’ve said, I don’t know you that well, but you seem to be someone who knows when to use their head and when to follow their heart. In this case, it sounds like you’ve listened (mainly) to your heart and I don’t think it was such a bad decision. There will always be things that affect our relationships, we just have to decide how important they are, reflecting on the love we have for the other person. The words you use in this short essay show how much you care about her…and I think she’s worth it. I can actually picture the two of you together
, and the “image” appears as if taken from a dream. You should put more thought into this issue…somehow, I think you’ve already done it, and I’m pretty sure you’ve made the best decision 
. Sorry for interfering, hope you don’t mind… I just like the two of you a lot and I couldn’t help it.