Without too much hussle and pre-notice I woke up this morning with the fresh memory of the Easter past. Then again, I went to church enjoying a large voice trembling which in time seems to be more and more disturbing, but for somewhat reasons it made me feel a bit better, closer to home and enabling me to belive again. In the past this used to be a very long ritual, involving both my phisical but especially my mental side. It was a soul preparing issue, which now seems so irrelevant, and all because of a small scenery change, finding it very hard to keep in my heart what before was very important. Now, it’s only dust, and unfortunately I can find myself everyday becoming more and more danish and non-believing. But could this happen to me, taking into consideration everything I’ve been through regarding these matters ? At least the food was festive and brought me a litlle closer to the actual story. Although I didn’t have lamb and other traditional culinary food, I felt a lot like “holiday”. I’ve decided, from now on everything related to religious things should happen at home, not here. Here it’s just another day, and that cannot be, not for me. Weather was not on my side either today, as the clouds seem to have taken unavoidable my blue loves place, and enabling the sun to be a short memory in the wind of dawns. I miss my sea, I miss my brown eyes and I miss myself. It seems this period brings a lot of memories into my mind, and although the sea still has to wait for a few months the eyes and myself … well that’s totally another story, as they would have to wait a bit longer if not forever. Surfing into the fields of time, today I could still notice I have a few friends left. That’s actually good, having that in mind I have one more reason to go home in the summer. Family was celebrating Easter properly today, and as this is the first year when I’m not with them I feel like one of those huge puzzles that misses a few, but most important pieces. Irrelevant some say, life is made from pieces, and stages and episodes. True I’d say, I just haven’t really realised how to act right now, dealing with this stage. In life as one door closes, a window opens, therefore you only have to be aware not to remain in between, with no windows left opened…