Today was a sad day at work, one of our colleagues had a brain concussion at yesterday while relaxing in the companies smoking room, she fell down and later last night she died. I felt a bit bad about it, though I didn’t know her very well. Everybody seemed to be affected by the event, but a bit after they embraced the ever-lasting and loving beer, they seemed to forget mostly everything, started joking laughing and playing on the XBox. Or maybe the shrink that came at 9:15 knew what to tell in order to assure everybody that it was just a sad event and that’s that… ?!?
I bet everybody felt bad about the whole party that was scheduled today in the afternoon with tons of beer, girls and music.
Tomorrow I’m moving, to a new apartment. A better zone, a bigger space, better facilities. With a bit of luck I will be able to cycle to work and to school somehow avoiding the whole rush hour in the city. Here I end my thoughts for today …

Without too much hussle and pre-notice I woke up this morning with the fresh memory of the Easter past. Then again, I went to church enjoying a large voice trembling which in time seems to be more and more disturbing, but for somewhat reasons it made me feel a bit better, closer to home and enabling me to belive again. In the past this used to be a very long ritual, involving both my phisical but especially my mental side. It was a soul preparing issue, which now seems so irrelevant, and all because of a small scenery change, finding it very hard to keep in my heart what before was very important. Now, it’s only dust, and unfortunately I can find myself everyday becoming more and more danish and non-believing. But could this happen to me, taking into consideration everything I’ve been through regarding these matters ? At least the food was festive and brought me a litlle closer to the actual story. Although I didn’t have lamb and other traditional culinary food, I felt a lot like “holiday”. I’ve decided, from now on everything related to religious things should happen at home, not here. Here it’s just another day, and that cannot be, not for me. Weather was not on my side either today, as the clouds seem to have taken unavoidable my blue loves place, and enabling the sun to be a short memory in the wind of dawns. I miss my sea, I miss my brown eyes and I miss myself. It seems this period brings a lot of memories into my mind, and although the sea still has to wait for a few months the eyes and myself … well that’s totally another story, as they would have to wait a bit longer if not forever. Surfing into the fields of time, today I could still notice I have a few friends left. That’s actually good, having that in mind I have one more reason to go home in the summer. Family was celebrating Easter properly today, and as this is the first year when I’m not with them I feel like one of those huge puzzles that misses a few, but most important pieces. Irrelevant some say, life is made from pieces, and stages and episodes. True I’d say, I just haven’t really realised how to act right now, dealing with this stage. In life as one door closes, a window opens, therefore you only have to be aware not to remain in between, with no windows left opened…

Today I had a meeting with the guys at Google Denmark. Pretty interesting and informative, especially debating upon AdWords and payed advertising, and at one time during ecuations and algorithms to calculate the rates and stuff, I almost fell asleep. That’s when I stepped in and made everything become an open talk, and guess what I found out ? That the 2 nerds that founded the Google Search Engine, actually have a way of influencing the companies that advertise on their search pages. For example, besides common sence topics like “porn” and … “guns” , BEER seems to be one of the topics that are forbbiden to be advertised for on Google. You can advertise for wine … but no for beer… no sir, no beer for us. That’s a bit racist, isn’t it ? Come to think of it, some cultures – like danes for example – give no real importance to wine … as they worship beer. Long live Carlsberg! Then again tomorrow is friday, which means … the weekend is close, and that means that Beer is awaiting. Let’s not forget Easter, Easter is coming, but as I haven’t been trully a nice guy lately, I belive the easter bunny will skip me … I’ll get beer for myself though.

Today was my first day at mecglobal, mediaedge:cia, mec:interaction or whatever the name of the company is. Nils greeted me when I got there, introduced me to my new desk holding a supreme Pentium 4 at 2,6 Ghz computer. Actually he thought that the desk I had was kind of small (not!) so he ordered another one, a bigger one. As for me, I have nothing against that . Next, he introduced me to the whole staff (about … 70 persons), to the facilities, to the kitchen (uuu the kitchen) and to the soft-drinks freezer which seemed endlessly filled with respect, and not least Coke, Cocio and other stuff. At 12 we had lunch, and had a nice table-footbal game where my mate seemed to be a God. He could jog that ball like it was the real thing. The whole world started spinning and I kind of lost notion of time when Martin started talking about Search Engine Optimisation. He seems to be quite into the technique. I’m not, but I know I have to get into it, even though it’s not my favourite profile. The freezer still lingers in my mind, I must have had about 5 drkins before I found out that I have to pay for them. Did I say 5 drink … uhm… I meant 2 . Well, on my way home, someone from up above smiled at me as I found a bicicle shop on its last minute to provide me with air for my bike. Bike … that sounds like Mike. Nordic people sound funny when saying my name, I don’t blame them, cause come to think of it, my name is a bit strange in terms of western culture, so I’ve encouraged everybody to call me Mike, dispite my boss’es advice to remain Mihai. He seems quite stubborn, and I know I’m stubborn therefore I hope I won’t have any issues with him, as he acted nice enough untill now. That’s it for now … Mihai over and out !

I had all day today to prepare myself, for the new job I will start and in the same time for Easter. Somehow I feel deprecated, from the spirit I used to have. It was something inside, that reacted emotionally to this period, to this week especially. I used to be sad in this period, sad but awaiting. Now it’s so deserted in there, lonely, sad, sometimes mad … but not awaiting. Part of the hope has vanished into thin air like a fresh Rexona on a windy day. Now you see it, now you don’t.It is interesting though isn’t it ? How decisions you make in seconds can change, years of experiences and traditions and feelings. Just like that! I’m on the timeline though, right upon the start, wondering if ever again I will have the power to feel like I did before. To go to a place where everybody knows my name and they are happy that I came, a place with friends that you can easily call home without wondering if you ever belonged to it or not, where feelling is not forbidden and attention is not to be begged for. To have a purpose

I’ve arrived there a bit late, but Daniel was kind enough to wait on me. I signed the “Resignation” paper, and handed in my keys and stuff. It seems that if you wished to quit … like I did now, I should have announced 2 weeks before, which would have been in my first day. Amazing isn’t it ? Farvel IKEA! Hello new job!

And… Tuesday starts again … I have to go by IKEA today to sign the papers for “dismissal”. No, I’m not letting go the CEO job I had there… I’m just moving on … a different step … a different life maybe. I actually hope that the sun that now seems to be hanged on top of those dark clouds stays there for at least a period. I’m tired of clouds, both in my life and outside. I’m enjoying intelligence though, and I like it.

Another day and another week start today. In terms of happiness I could say I’m halfway to alright. Lets hope I’ll be able to fill in this blog easier than I did with the other one …